Past Midnight Thoughts

It’s half past midnight and my mind still wouldn’t rest. It’s still very much awake, running and processing some thoughts. I decided I’d write them down and share them with you however random they may be.

Don’t think twice. Just do it! Carpe Diem!

Travel a lot. Explore and experience the world. Don’t keep postponing. When are you going to decide to do it? When you’re already too old to travel?

Never stop  believing in the goodness of people. Give countless of chances until you see fit.

Usually, people who we thought would never harm us end up doing exactly just that. They either hurt you, lie to you, or betray you. 

Love is a wonderful thing. Love and be loved by all means. If you’re still single, fret not because there will be one person in the world who despite the world’s vastness, will eventually show up and sweep you off your feet.

We live not to work. We work not to live but rather we just need to live. And work is just a tiny part of it (if you know what I mean)

Speak your thoughts. Most people nowadays are afraid of doing that- scared that they will be called out for feeling what they’re feeling.

Remember that all emotions are valid. Feel it but don’t wallow in it especially the negative feeling. Forgive and forget. Unless it’s a heinous crime.  

Keep your peace. Try doing that although hard as it is. Stay positive and remind yourself that nothing is worth stressing about.

If someone has hurt you, hope that he/she won’t experience the same thing he/she did to you. Leave it all to God. He knows what to do. 

And lastly,

Love life. Love yourself because no one else can give you the love you know you deserve other than yourself!

 

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To the Next Man That Will Have My Heart

This morning my best friend from high school shared with me an entry she wrote for her blog. While browsing through other entries, I stumbled upon one that’s dedicated to her future boyfriend. After reading it, I was inspired to do the same. So here goes my letter to the man of my dreams, my future boyfriend, and the one I’m hoping to spend a lifetime with:

 

Dear Future Lover,

I promise that I will give you my full trust, honesty, and loyalty. I will not hide anything from you or lie to you. Instead, I will be very open. You will have my complete respect and in return, I hope to have yours too. I wish that you’ll always be wary of my presence and you’ll never make me feel that you are ashamed of me. 

I will try my best to make you feel my love. I wouldn’t say yes to be your girlfriend if I am unsure of you so never doubt my feelings. I may not like public display of affection but I will like it if you will randomly hold my hand, give me a hug or look me in the eyes with a loving smile. 

Please don’t make me promises you can’t keep. I’d rather you surprise me with what you have in mind than let me believe that you will all make them come true and yet the simplest of all – of not hurting me you couldn’t keep. I hope that you’ll just stay realistic.

I am nowhere near perfect for a girlfriend. Like any individual, I have a lot of flaws. Some you might find endearing and some even annoying.  When I’m too happy, I like to dance and act crazy. I laugh out loud and I have the tendency to be very noisy but I get too quiet also when I’m thinking. And I do that a lot. I like wondering about the future thus I may ask you every now and then of your dreams for I wanna include you in mine.

I am into details. I notice the littlest of things and mistakes. It’s not to make you feel bad but because I know you are someone that can do so much more. I may point them out but only for you to outdo yourself.

In terms of your life goals, I promise I will be your cheerleader and number one fan.  I will be there every step of the way. I will be proud of your achievements no matter how big or small. You can always lean on me. I want us to be true friends who can openly share our woes to each other. I will listen to you and I will try to cheer you up if you’re feeling down. I will give you massages if your shoulder aches and I will make sure that every day I greet you in the most loving way I know. And even if you’re a pet lover, I will love you just the same. I will adjust. I am often scared of dogs but if you have one, I will try my best to be friends with it.

For a woman, I don’t think I am very hard to please. I like simple dates. I don’t mind eating anywhere you like.So long as it’s with you, my stomach will feel full. If there are times I insist on where I want to eat, that’s because I like you to eat there with me. I want to share that moment with you.  I don’t really care if you don’t buy me flowers or chocolates. I am not into those anyway. What I like are personally made gifts. If you write me letters, that will be the best. No need for fancy stuff. I can buy that for myself.

I like going for a drive and stargazing. I don’t really like movie dates. I find it boring and time-consuming. I can watch the movie alone. I will just love to spend time and talk with you wherever whenever possible. There are days though when you might find me too sensitive. When this happens, just learn to bear with it because that won’t last long. And if by chance I get mad at you, allow me to keep my peace. I would not want to say anything that could hurt you. I just want some time to dissipate my anger.

I am also a travel enthusiast. I like going to places I haven’t seen and explored. How about uou hop on a plane with me and let’s see if you’ll fit to be my travel buddy. Don’t get me wrong, though I love travelling, an adventure involving heights is too much for me. But then if you’ll help me overcome my fear, I’ll go on the top of the world with you just be patient with me. If you wanna go to the beach to swim, even though I am not a fan because I am afraid of deep waters, I will for you.

I will try to be the best girlfriend for you and I will dote on you but please just don’t give up on me so easily when I am at my lows and very much unlovable. I will be very understanding of your temper and moods so please do the same for me. I hope you’ll still choose me when the circumstances are very much inconvenient and the world seems like it’s tearing us apart.

But then again if the inevitable comes, and we find ourselves losing each other, let’s try to fix us. At least try for me. Give us a chance. We both deserve that much. But if all else fails, have the decency to break up with me in person not just through a text message. And if that’s not possible, be man enough and have the balls to call me.

You see my heart had been badly broken once and I am hoping that you’ll spare me from that kind of tragedy again. I sincerely wish that you are going to be my last boyfriend and will be the man I will spend the rest of my life with. I promise you that I will love you wholeheartedly like I have never been hurt before. I don’t want the moon and the stars. All I want is your genuine love and affection devoid of any deceit and lies.

Going Grand (Canyon)

One of the happiest feelings in the world is to breathe and just wallow in God’s creations. It invokes a peaceful feeling that allows you to fully appreciate and marvel in the beauty of what’s in front of you. Many times in the past, I have experienced this overwhelming emotion that rendered me completely in awe of the nature. A perfect example was my stint in the Loboc River. It was short and yet so sweet. And every time I recall the cruise, it brings about the same feeling I had while I was sitting there on the boat too grateful.I could not think of anything else as I let the wind brush against my face except dolce vita. It was very magical and a wonderful experience. It’s the kind of feeling that’s devoid of stress, of any drama just pure joy. Two years later, that sort of feeling resurfaced once more as I witnessed the beauty of the Grand Canyon.

2014 was the year that allowed me to travel and go to a lot of places that I used to only dream of seeing. I remember when I was 21, I’ve only thought of maybe one day traveling and stepping foot on the US soil. Maybe, the universe heard of it that somehow an opportunity presented its way to me and not only did I get to go for a vacation but I even had the chance to live and work there. Truth be told, even though I secretly wished for it to happen, I never thought that it would happen so soon.

When I arrived in the US then, I had my wishlist of where I wanted to go. They were mostly cliche tourist destinations but who cares, right?haha! All I wanted then was simply to explore. On top of my list was New York and then LA and Vegas. I must really be very lucky at that time because all the places I’ve wished to see, I was able to really see. Of course, on that list, the Grand canyon was included since I was already living in Arizona. And the very lucky me had finally the chance to go see it three months into my internship.

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The Grand Canyon

Around December of the same year, two of my roommates and I had all the same day off. Out of nowhere, we planned to go for a road trip. We decided it would be nice to see the Grand Canyon and to stop by Sedona along the way. To make it all possible though, we decided to rent a car to avoid any road mishap.  Jean, another friend of ours, came up with this idea and since my roommates were scared to drive on the freeway, Jean and I were the designated drivers. Jenlee, another close friend, also tagged along on a last minute notice. The plan was that I’d drive from Tucson to Phoenix and then Jean, from Phoenix to Sedona and then my turn again but somehow it ended up the other way around.HAHA! Talk about spontaneity.

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Quick stop on our way to Red Rock State Park

We left Tucson at 4:30 am so we’d be able to reach Grand Canyon around 9 am. But with all the restroom breaks along the way and the quick stop to get some drinks, the drive was stretched to until 11 am. When we arrived, we found out that it snowed the day before thus, most areas were still covered by snow. And may I just say that it was very very cold. I was too relieved that  the smart me brought the thermal jacket and wore two layers of clothes under.I thought with the elevation and the winter season, it will definitely make the state park very very cold. And who would want want to freeze to death?!  Not me.HAHA

Kidding aside, Grand Canyon turned out to be just as I expected. It looked like a live painting. It was picturesque and for which there’s no doubt of how breathtaking it was. I loved that I could stare at it and just be left captivated. The feeling actually can never be compared to anything. To witness and see it in person was sheer bliss. Back then, I thought, how nice it would have been if my sisters and brothers can see it too. As I stood there in awe of everything I was seeing, I could feel that life was really good. I could feel how lucky I was for what I have and what was given to me. I remember the feeling just too well. I still know of how overwhelmed and happy I was.

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Two years later, here I am still able to remember the feeling of happiness it brought upon me. The Lord has been very good to me during those times. I must say I was very very lucky. They say that when it rains, it really pours. I was very blessed indeed at that time and I couldn’t have asked for more. And you know, it was sort of weird because the more I felt blessed, the more blessings appeared. I can never put into words how good God was to me. And I was just really really beyond thankful.

I know two years have passed, but with all the things that have happened to me, I lost all the drive to write about the wonderful things. I was blinded and sidetracked. It’s only now that the drive to finish this entry emerged but what the heck, better late than never, right? HAHA

Thank you universe for allowing events to happen the way they did. I was given the wonderful opportunity to breathe and wallow in the beauty of nature. Thank you Lord for the endless opportunities that you have showered me to explore the world. Only You can do it that way. Only You can invoke such wonderful feeling of happiness.